You Are Beautiful

Haha, I just had to share this photo.

By any means, I'm not trying to sound selfish, but my skin looks so flawless!!!! My skin has always been really bad, I have some acne scarring and only now it has been in such a condition that I don't have to be ashamed of my facial skin. (Let's face it, bad skin can make one insecure.)

As a background info, I went thorough some facial treatments and tried different products (also ones that you can only have if you go to see doctor), but nothing was THE ONE for me.

AND NOW; 

I mean, my face has been looking like this for a while now, but I was still really surprised as I saw the picture. The pose is horrible, but I can't stop staring at my cheek! xDDD

I SWEAR I HAVEN'T DONE ANY PHOTOSHOPPING FOR MY SKIN! You can even see my eye wrinkles and some spots on my forehead (not to mention my nose). There's no that plastic feel, you know. :DD

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Yesterday I took my foundation off , but let only mascara on. Little bit later I walked pass the mirror and was like: "Do I still have my makeup on???" :DDD And I meant the FOUNDATION!

It was so weird situation for me, 'cause something like year ago I couldn't stand to look at myself from the mirror without foundation and now I went out wearing only mascara....

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Yeah, the thing I said not being able to look at myself from the mirror... it's sad, I know. :/

I was terribly insecure and also shy because of my skin problems. I mean, I'm naturally shy, but at this point I was overly scared someone would judge me or something.

And I KNOW, it's silly! :)

I have built up my confidence since these 'bad days', but still I have those unsure moments time to time.

Having said that, these unsure moments are now even more silly and so unnecessary, 'cause if I have e.g really dry lips or a red mark on my face, I can crack to think these stupid "what if" questions. (they are so stupid, I won't even mention any). 

NO ONE WILL CARE IF I HAVE A RED SPOT ON MY FACE: THE SPOT WON'T AFFECT TO MY PERSONALITY!

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I don't know, these are the things I have been living with for too long. For too long I felt unsure about myself.

I feel kind of awful to say this, but it took lot of guts for me to apply to the Cosmetician school and to the beauty industry, because I actually at some point had thought that I'm not good enough for the beauty industry. I'm not beautiful enough...

Argh, I can't believe I felt that way. :(

Couple weeks ago this one person said to me; "You are beautiful. Even without makeup."

(Made me very happy, but I don't think the person even relizes how happy, 'cause I... never told anyone how I felt.)

This post started as a meaningless mumble, but now I really want to say to you all;

You are all beautiful. Nobody is perfect - flaws make us human beings.

.... I'm now crying here as I write this.

I don't beg your pity - I never did since I never spoke to anyone...
So please don't feel too bad for me, I don't want to upset you.
I'm now stronger person, I feel like I have beat my demons - I survived.

But if there's anyone that have same kind of feelings, feel free to write to me if you want. :)

(I could write many pages from this subject, but I won't... and my brains are scrumble right now, 'cause it's sooooo late again! :'D)

Wish a happy and beautiful day to you all! <3

btw, I'm starting to be better at filling my brows! ;)
(They are reallyhard to define, since I have that Finnish hair/brow color.... ash blond. On top of that my brows are really thin and almost rounded shape. Yes, I'm stereotypical Finnish person; golden blond hair and sparkly blue eyes. hahah xD)

Cosmetology Info Event

Waah, I'm exhausted X_x
I didn't sleep well.... (well I did sleep well enough, but I was forced to get up too early. ;( ) And on top of that I had a COSMETOLOGY SCHOOL INFO of adult schooling! (Now I want to study that field even more! <3)
Why on earth I applied to Uni. last summer?!?!
(Well thanks to 'wrong' choices I now know what I want to be.) Been philosophical here.  

This was my first time to visit this particular school. It was HUUUUUGE and so neat!
Stunning.
There are different buildings E.g for Beauty/Cosmetology, Nursing, Bakers (for some restaurant chefs... I don't know what they are called! :D haha.)
Just quess did I enter the wrong building at first???
If you answered 'YES', it's the right answer!!! Golden star for you! ;)
But fortunately I didn't run in the hallways like a headless chicken.
When leaving there at the end of the info event I only thought: "I WANT TO STUDY HERE!" <3
The place was cool, the degree is what I want and the teachers seemed so nice and couraging.
Me likey >_<

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Anyway, I was quite anxious to go there, 'cause the invitation told that there would be some kind of TEST.
I was like; "When's the test? What kind of is it? What if I mess it and shatter my own dreams into million peaces? (went little over with that expression -.- It's not ony this blog, I talk with 'clever' idioms in real life too, if I got the chance to be 'poetic' *tries to hold back the laughter*. Me and my 'wannabe writers' mind.)"
The scary thoughts went on and on... "If it's really hard? No math!" (Almost throw up when thinking I would have to do math X.x)

And then they gave the 'daunting' test...

"1) Add 'boxes' to this geometrical picture so that the pile doesn't fall down.
2) How many boxes there are in the finished drawing?
3) Draw a mirror picture of this; .... "

*Crickets chirpin inside my head.*
I look on the other side of the paper with a hollow look in my eyes and... There's nothing. Just three tiny questions.
This is the TEST???? Are you kidding me?

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Haha. So I was overly worried obviously, they just wanted to test our outlining abilities (I don't know if that's the right word in English).

The 'box'  thing was definitely not my cup of tea.
I stink with geometrical patterns. But I don't think that's the most important thing when choosing next cosmetology students! :D
More inportant is the essay which I now have to write. It must be awesome!
And of course the motivation is THE MOST IMPORTANT of all.

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Next friday I have a interview for the cosmetology schooling and it's on the same school that I visited today. YAY!
Basically I applied for two schooling programs in the same school - the adolecense side of cosmetology program and the adult side of it also.
In the adolecense side I already know I'm qualified to go to the interview (which is going to seal my destiny partly :P With a great interview answers, one spot is mine and with bad ones... You know the other choice, I'm not going to say it just 'cause I'm lil' superstition ).
But in the adult side, I have to do a essay first and then I maybe got the invitation.
Complicated ha?

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BUT SO HAPPY! NEXT FRIDAY A INTERVIEW! AND I GOT TO GO TO THAT NEAT SCHOOL AGAIN!!!!!! So in love.
Hmmm.... Good thing it doesn't show I haven't been in school for a year now. *Queen of sarcasm* 

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Here's a photo of my... tired and always as pale face. (just if somebody's interested of my 'info event' makeup and hairdo.) x)
I kept it natural, just in case there would be some kind of interview type of things. (head band and pearl earrings missing from picture.)
I maybe wear that same blouse on friday in the actual interview. :)
Honestly the clothing style I had today doesn't differ from my casual style too much. So I at least didn't over dress myself. :)

'Vanamo' necklace, Neutral makeup with winged liner, ponytail so that my face shows and natural but defined brows (usually my brows are barely visible. haha :D)

Have a good day Lil' readers! Or if is it evening, then: good evening!

You will hear from me soon! There are some tutorial things planned in my calender (the calender that exist in my head. But it's more accurate than the paper one! ;D) and at the end of the week I will tell how the interview went! :)
(If it went great I write, but in other cases... You can quess it. I won't say the other choice out loud, 'cause I'm little superstitious and think that if I do say it, it'll happen that way O_o) 

I'm been silly now, aren't I?

Can't help it, part of who I am. :)))

Thank you for reading! (it was horribly long post. Or at least it looked like it was.)

Mystery Vitamin

Hey!

Have you ever had that feeling when you brush your long, seemingly healthy hair with your hands and then you suddenly notice a BIG pile of hair on the floor and tangeld between your fingers? First thought usually among women is: "AM I GOING BALD?!?!" (And then we secretly wipe the fallen hair to the trash an with a squeezing feeling in our stomach. haha)

But fear not. (That sounded like some cartoon character.) You probably aren't going bald even if wad of loose hair can be scary vision. More likely you're just suffering from deprivation of vitamin called BIOTIN (also known as Vitamin-H).

For some reason Biotin is kind of a mystery vitamin for many of us. And by 'mystery' I mean many knows for example how important vitamin-C is... Or Omega-3.

But biotin... The first question I have heard when mentioning Biotin, is always: "What?" And then after that "What it does?" And then.... You get the point.

That's why I now try to little bit open this mystery for you by telling my own expierences with Biotin and by answering these common question. :)

(Feel like a ambassador of vitamin-H!) 

WHAT IS BIOTIN?

- It's a vitamin which improves the quality of your hair and nails. It also can prevent hair to go grey! (Now ladies we don't want grey hair, don't we?)

- It takes part in manufacturing Keratin (protein and key structural of hair and nails.)

- It's sulphur 'based' vitamin (Sorry if I didn't express that with right term.) <--- Sulphud has an impact on the structure of your nails. Ex. garlic, onion and cucumber contains sulphud. (Yay! I can eat onion chips then?)
- Deprivasion causes; hair loss, fragile nails (ex.)



Picture's from Google

SO NOW WE KNOW THAT BIOTIN IS GOOD FOR NAILS, (SKIN) AND HAIR; BUT IS IT SAFE?

- YES! Biotin is safe. As a matter of fact, you get biotin from your regular diet (but quite tiny amounts).

Raw egg yolk, liver, some vegetables and peanuts contains Biotin. (These are the foods that contain relatively high amount.)

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I think it's quite common to have a deprivasion of Biotin. I mean think about it; many of us 'suffers' from loss of hair and has... well quite poor nails. (And how many of us really eats everyday liver or RAW egg yolks... those foods which contains the high amunt biotin????) 

For the hair deprivasion we usually blame the season, heat, lack of hair care, styling irons or regeneration.

And nails on the other hand... I at least use to say only; "I just have short, bad nails. They won't grow. Never, ever"

I was blaming my genes??? :D (Genes are only one factor.)

Personally I didn't even think about lack of some vitamin, 'cause my hair was growing quite fast already. It didn't cross my mind that there would be some combining factor between nail and hair growth. I saw hair, nails and skin as a individual parts (if that makes any sense). (BTW not anymore.)

THAT LEADS US TO MY EXPERIENCES WITH BIOTIN;

Last summer-fall my hair was badly falling down and it didn't grow well. My nails were even worse than my hair. (Let me tell you, they were so horrible that it seemed like I had scratch stones for hours with my nails. :D)

My skin was also really bad (dry and then again oily, spots, blemishes...), but I'm not going to tell about that matter too much 'cause I felt like biotin wasn't the answer for my skin problems.

Now when I look back I know that failing to get in school was one reason why my skin, nails and hair were so stressed out. (I was quite stressed out and also little depressed.) JUST WANTING TO REMIND; STRESS WILL AFFECT TO YOUR WHOLE BODY.

I ate biotin about month or two after hearing that it could help with my skin problems. Instead of my skin feeling better, I noticed change in my hair and nails;

NAILS

* My nails grew 'abnormally' fast

* They were strong (no more chipping)

* Healthy color (pink + white strip)

* I had to cut them frequently so that they aren't overly long

Seriously, some even asked me, if I had acrylic nails!

HAIR

* Grew also faster and stronger

* Was shiny

* Didn't have knots

* Weren't so frizzy (I have natural waves which makes my hair little frizzy)

* No more harsh hair loss

SKIN (?) (There were some little improvements)

* Somehow little smoother

* More healthy looking (healthy glow?)

MY BIOTIN CONTAINED;

* 5mg Biotin (10000% compared to the amount you get from diet in a day)

* 15mg Zink (150% -"-)

* 40mg Methionine

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I was personally really happy with the 'results'/healthier body. This particular biotin is my absolute favourite, 'cause it contains also Zink (skin) so I don't have to take also Zink capsel.

Over month ago I tried also other Biotin capsels, but I didn't saw same kind of results with it. Maybe 'cause it contained only biotin and on top of that there was much less the vitamin in one capsel. (+ there were only 15 tablets)

I understand not everybody likes to eat 'extra' vitamins from jar, but personally I don't get all the vitamins that I need from my diet (specially what comes to these 'mystery vitamis'). :)

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Would I then recomend trying biotin tablets?

- Yes. I do recomend trying biotin, if you feel like your hair or nails are feeling badly. (just make sure you read the product info carefully) :)

If you want more info or you have any further questions about my experiences with Vitamin-H, just e-mail or leave a comment. :)

(Finnish readers; Jos kiinnostuitte tästä kyseisetä biotiini tuotteesta ja haluatte tietää siitä enemmän, laittakaa meiliä niin sähköpostaan lisää infoa takaisin. :))

Remember Lil' readers to take your VITAMINS! ;) <3 

Rainy Day, Happy Day

It's raining today, but that certainly doesn't mean the day is sad day. Know why?

'CAUSE I WAS INVITED TO THE ENTRANCE EXAM OF COSMETOLOGY SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!

Soooooooooooooo HAPPY x 1000000000000000000!

These precious papers are proof that I'm now one step closer my dream to become a professional Beauty Expert!!!

This journey I will be happy to share with my readers. <3 

Can't even tell you how excited I am! Seriously I'm just giggling here, almost jumping on to walls! Even my hands are SHAKY. >.<

Hope you Lil' Readers have happy day also! <3 :)

( I may post a look later today :)... If I'm able to do my makeup with shaky hands!)

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